Ree At Level 29 !!

It's my birthday today and I just turned 29...... and I am writing about it!! Which is pretty crazy and beautiful all in one if you ask me! Why you might wonder? Because for the longest I have been so private about my age.

Me after my BigChop 2 weeks ago

I remember when I turned 23 and I was so depressed that I was growing 'old' and 'not where people my age were supposed to be', and that 'everyone' I went to school with was way ahead of me. Writing this just reminded me a quote I saw on Heather's Instagram that said - "If social media makes you feel like you are behind in life then you spend too much time on it. Our life is measured by God's seasons not by comparing our life to others "- Food for thought if you currently find yourself there. Anyway so there I was joining uni to study my undergrad (which was a miracle and blessing in the works and I had so much to celebrate and be thankful for but there I was focusing on the negative). I felt so behind in life that I kept my age details so private, I was so guarded, sensitive and insecure about it all  - I didn't lie about it ( I'd be flattered when people would insist to know and then guess that I was much younger than I was) but I was simply NOT TELLING!! Pretty sad ay! Crazy mental bondage I tell you (one of the many beautiful things that my new life in Christ has set me free from and He continues to develop me in these and more areas!)

Fast forward 6 years later - I am now a born-again Christian, I'm single (if we are not counting Jesus, lol) and so content with this season of my life and that's been the case for almost 2 years now since I gave my life to Christ in August 2014 - Infact I've began writing a series on this and you can read that here .

Today I guess I am just here to say that - you know what, I don't know what tomorrow holds, I have a whole lot of uncertain circumstances all around me and there is a lot I could be down, worried and sad about, but guess what? I am not!!! I have the peace that surpasses all understanding. I am filled with so much joy about the endless possibilities of my life because I personally know the maker and giver of my life, the one who knows and sees my end from my beginning ( the entire universe's for that matter), the one who runs this show! I am safe, so safe in the loving capable hands of my God my Father, guided by His very own Spirit living in me and saved by the finished work of Christ on the cross. I have everything I will ever need in this life and body and my life eternal forever. God created me to be in a relationship with Him, to be in perfect fellowship with Him, I was created to worship Him with my life! So I will continue to seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and all other things shall be added unto me. He alone shall supply all my needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus. He alone satisfies my soul. I know He cares for me, I know He loves me!  Jesus is my life!! In Him I live and move and in Him have all my being. My everyday purpose is found in Him and out of my daily walk with Him my entire life purpose is unfolding right before my eyes.

He is my God. He is my Shepherd ( he protects and provides for me). He is my King ( I am in the hands of He who has all power, and is sovereign over everything and owns it all) and He is my Father (he really cares and really knows what I need and will work for me to be sure that I have what I need) so I rest and find love and authority, provision and guidance in Him alone.

And this is where I am and will always be. He will give me the grace for every season of my life and all the ups and downs they will come with, His grace is always going to be sufficient, and his grace also comes with joy and enjoyment for He is there and for where the Spirit of the Lord is there is freedom! Freedom to just be me and be all God created me to be and to be free to focus on pleasing Him the creator and not the created. I now live for an audience of One, my Lord who is God the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Spirit. I am free, I am glad, I am full of joy for He satisfies my soul !!!

And if you don't understand what it is I am going on and on about, my prayer is that you will have a real and true encounter with the one true living God! I can't wait for you to feel and know like I do, for this to become a real living truth in your very own life!! This is more than just a good feeling, it's a very very very real reality! Jesus is the love of my life, The Holy Spirit is my best friend and God the Father is my the perfect loving Daddy I never had. And He is very very real, as real as you understand you and me to be.

But don't get me wrong, I do know first hand that it is no a light matter, we may all find ourselves at one point or another caught in the dump of feeling like our lives don't add up, like time is running out to accomplish abcd and e!.. that age is catching up with us, or not being where we thought we ought to be or feeling all kinds of pressure from society, or that everybody else's life seems to be progressing and yours simply isn't!! But I also know that there is a way out of it, I know someone who has made the way out for each and everyone of us, He has done it for me and countless other and He can do it for you too. Jesus makes it possible to see the truth of life from His very own eyes and to be set free from all of this and more. I promise you, life is bigger and sweeter than those false feelings based on mindsets built on lies and I know our life is measured by God's seasons not by comparing our life to others.

I can smile at any storm - because Jesus!

I am not perfect, I am a daily constant work in progress, but I am also so far from who I was on this day 2 years ago. I am all that I am today by the grace and strength and power of God, not of my own, nothing of my own. You can think positive all you want, plan to and do better with your will power, but there will always be a missing link. We find our completion in Jesus alone.

Life with Jesus is not a walk in the park, it gets very real, but you don't get to do life alone, He carries you through it all, all the seasons! It is so worth it living for Jesus !! He will reveal to you your true identity in Him, and give you true contentment and it won't matter what is or isn't going on in your life. Life will become much bigger and more beautiful than you used to see it. Living for Jesus is so worth it, so beautifully worth it!!! Nothing is this world will ever come close to giving you what He does. Would you give Him your life ?

If you woke up feeling purposeless, remind yourself that today is a part of your big picture. You need these days to remind yourself that you have purpose & it has nothing to do with how you feel. You were given purpose in your mothers womb by God & that same God that started a work in you will complete it. So smile & enjoy the journey! #Rest - Heather Lindsey

Don’t measure yourself by others. Measure yourself by your potential in Christ. The real question is how to be the fullest, most God-centered, Christ-exalting, Bible-saturated, loving, humble mission-advancing, justice-seeking, others-serving person you, you can be. - John Piper

Christian living doesn't have an "on/off" switch. Living for God is 24/7/365. God is your life, not part of your life. - Frank Powell

I love you Jesus! Thank you for another year and opportunity to live for You and to worship You with all my heart, all my mind, all my soul, all my strength! To live for You with all my life, with all that is in me!

                                                 Brooke Fraser – Lord Of lords
Beholding Your beauty
Is all that I long for
To worship You Jesus
Is my sole desire
For this very heart
You have shaped be your pleasure
Purposed to lift Your Name higher

Now unto the Lamb
Who sits on the throne
Be glory and honor and praise
All of creation resounds with the song
Worship and praise Him
The Lord of lords

Spirit now living
And dwelling within me
Keep my eyes fixed
Ever on Jesus' face
Let not the things of this world
Ever sway me
I'll run until I finish the race

Now unto the Lamb
Who sits on the throne
Be glory and honor and praise
All of eternity echoes the song
Worship and praise Him
The Lord of lords

Now unto the Lamb who sits on the throne be all glory and honour and praise!

Till next time !

Love, Ree.

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